I NEVER believed we could win in Port Elizabeth on Saturday. Of course, I hoped we might, but, hope is the default setting for the Tartan Army - football and rugby branches. Sadly, in my lifetime, hope has all too often been dashed by the reality of defeat.
The South African team which won the battle of two shadow squads - battle, rout more like, was well under-strength, as was the Scottish team. The margin of defeat merely emphasised, again, the difference in numbers and resources between the two nations.
We might think we still sit at rugby's top table, Certainly, there are still Scots in positions of influence within the IRB, however, our influence, like our world ranking, is declining. We really have to have a radical overhaul of Scottish rugby, if we are not to be overtaken by, newer, younger, rugby nations.
For instance, once Sevens makes its bow in the Olympics, just watch rugby really take off in the USA. And, when, rather than if, they put in place a professional Rugby Union League in the USA, just watch them go - as such a league will, if nothing else, provide a means whereby those gridiron players not deemed godd enough for the NFLm can enjoy a career in professional sports.
When that happens, even the Blacks and the Boks will be worried.
We are no longer deemed strong enough for in-season games in the Southern Hemisphere. Addressing this should be a priority for the SRU. The best and quickest way of doing this will be a two-fold operation: becoming competitive in the Six Nations and at the 2015 World Cup.
That has to be Vern Cotter's first task.
I am coming round to the belief we should be totally rejigging our domestic game, although, this might not be properly possible until after a Yes vote and independence. Then, we might see tax reforms which would make it worth-while for our best professional players to remain in Scotland.
Independence might also make it easier to put in place the further professional teams we need, if we are to get the numbers up, and compete.
I want, as a first step, to see the clubs, finally, putting individual interests and "Aye Beenism" behind them, let's try, as a half-way house, the semi-pro league which the SRU is keen to start.
In time, let's have five pro sides, based on the old District teams - the fifth being London Scottish, playing in the Pro12 - thus giving that league a presence in the lucrative London sports market.
Let's see a real effort at grass-roots level, to get more state school boys playing and able to see a career progression in professional rugby.
Let's see a bit more rugby in the media too.
Lsoing badly to South Africa wasn't the end of the world. But, it could be the beginning of the end, if we do not resolve: never again, and make the necessary changes to prevent a recurrence.